My Intuitive Awakening

My metaphysical journey started in 2014 when a masseuse I had was talking to me about the night terrors I was having. As she was giving me a full body massage, I was explaining to her that I would wake up abruptly in the middle of the night screaming as if there was a man at the end of my bed trying to attack me. My husband at the time would have to calm me down, stop me from screaming, and soothe me. Even though he couldn't see what was going on, he knew that I was terrified of something in our bedroom. The night terrors didn't happen very often, but when they did, they were very disturbing. The masseuse explained to me that I was seeing spirits, ghosts, entities not of the human variety. We determined that the night terrors moved with me from location to location when we moved apartments, so it wasn't like one space that I lived in was haunted and the next space wasn't. Whatever this entity was, it was moving with me.

I mentioned my night terrors to my neighbor, and she gave me the book by Brian Weiss called "Many Lives, Many Masters," which talks about past life regressions and introduced me to the idea of reincarnation. Shortly after that, I went to an event where I saw Brian Weiss speak at the Rosemont Convention Center in a room full of hundreds of people. We did a series of practices in that room that blew my mind.

One exercise he had us do was partner with a complete stranger we had never met before, exchange an item that was near and dear to us like a piece of jewelry. I handed my wedding ring to a stranger next to me, and she proceeded to do the meditation with my ring. The result was that she told me that my grandmother said hi and gave me flowers. She saw a long hallway, Florida, and an alligator and explained to me her vision. I then interpreted her vision as my dad's mom, who used to work at an airport and would call me whenever there were alligators on the tarmac because she worked for the airport security with my grandfather. When it was my time to give her information about her piece of jewelry, I saw images and was able to relate them to her, even though they didn't make sense to her at the time. We then went on to do a past life regression meditation as a very large group. I saw an image of myself being wrapped in muslin and buried at sea, with the bubbles rising from my body as it sank into the ocean. I didn't necessarily understand what happened at that event, but I definitely was curious and needed to learn more.

I continued to have night terrors, and they took the form of what the Harry Potter books describe as dementors, which are floating black, ribbon-y shadows hovering over my bed. I was at a New Year's Eve party with my husband at the time when this conversation of ghosts came up. I was explaining that I have these night terrors. A friend asked my husband if he had ever seen them and he finally spoke up and said, "Oh yeah, I've seen them." I was shocked because he had never told me that before, and all this time I had thought that I was crazy, but he could actually see them too.

My masseuse went on to teach me the first and second levels of Reiki, which is an energy healing modality that moves healing energy throughout your body. I went back to practice what I had learned on my husband after the first training, and he was blown away. I put my hands near his ankle that had been injured in an accident at work during high school. His foot had been smashed between a forklift and a pole crushing the cartilage in his ankle without breaking his bones. My husband could feel the energy moving through his ankle, and his foot got hot. He noticed a significant difference in how it felt without me physically touching his body.

I had another experience while waiting for my kids to get out of elementary school. Another parent was coming to pick up their child and had just had shoulder surgery and had taken painkillers. He was pretty out of it. I asked him if I could do Reiki on his shoulder, and I said I wouldn't need to touch anything, but I'd just put my hands near his shoulder, about 5 inches away from it. He consented.

When I started doing Reiki, he told me that it felt like little bugs were crawling all over his shoulder and up and down his arm. Within 5 minutes of me performing the energy healing, his cognition completely cleared, his pain was reduced, and he was coherent again. The effects of the painkillers were no longer impairing his cognition, and he was blown away.

I joke that Reiki was my gateway into the metaphysical world because things just got more and more wild from that point forward.

A friend gave me a ticket to a coaching conference outside of Las Vegas and at that conference I met a woman who offered speaker training in Colorado. I met an energy healer out of California who was teaching something called energy mastery. I ended up signing up to do additional trainings with both of those women. When I signed up with the energy healer, I remember my body doubling over and my breathing became shallow. I was overcome with energy and emotion, giving me a really strong sense that I needed to practice with her and study with her as part of my healing journey. When I signed up with the speaker coach, she taught me a way to get grounded into my body that allowed me to feel something I had never felt before. It connected me to my womb space such that I felt an incredible sense of calm overwhelmed me.

That same weekend, I met two psychics at dinner, and I was explaining to them how I had night terrors. They connected psychically to what was happening in my body and told me that I had an entity connected to me that needed to be removed. It was possible that my life would be ended in order to disconnect us, because this entity so desperately wanted to be disconnected. I thought they were batshit crazy, and at the same time felt like if this was an opportunity to get rid of my night terrors, I was willing to spend a couple of hundred dollars with them in order to see what was possible.

Before my flight on the last day of my trip, I went over to their room, and they performed what I can only describe as an exorcism-type experience on me. They explained that when I was born, this entity came with me through the birth canal and attached to me at my left scapula on my back, which was where I was having a good deal of pain in my body since graduate school. Combined with the night terrors, they were saying this entity was trying to get my attention because it didn't want to be attached to me in this lifetime anymore. The message they got was that in a past lifetime, my brother and I were conjoined twins, and we were conjoined at that spot on our backs at the scapula. My father was the ringleader of the circus, and we were part of a freak show that was traveling to make money. While I thought all this was insane, my body's reaction to what they were saying was so incredibly powerful and not something that could be explained by any rational thoughts that I could have had. They told me to move my shoulders in circles in order to move the energy, and when I did, I felt a power surge going through the palms of my hands as if I was Iron Man. Eventually they disconnected the entity, passed it out the window, said a bunch of prayers, and cleansed my energy. After about 45 minutes of this, I was exhausted and relieved while being totally freaked out.

There wasn't really an option for me to ever not believe what was happening, because the physical evidence my body was experiencing was irrefutable. I felt better and the night terrors stopped after having the entity disconnected from my energetic body.

After learning Reiki, I went to a weekend training at a woman's home to learn Theta Healing DNA Basics. The first day of that training involved learning a lot of muscle testing, which is scientifically called kinesiology. Muscle testing is used to ask a question and use your body's subconscious connection to get a response to the question that is either true or false. Theta Healing has a lot of other trainings and different levels that I have not studied, but in this training we focused mainly on belief systems, our mindset, and how to reprogram our limiting beliefs. After two days of muscle testing and belief work, I was given an alternative way to do muscle testing within my body. Whenever I asked a question and got a no, my left eye would blink. Whenever I asked a question and got a yes, my right eye would blink. Traditionally people muscle test by pressing on someone's arm to feel resistance or slack in the muscle response. I now had a shortcut linking me directly to my subconscious to give me yes and no answers to questions that I was asking throughout my day. This became a major connection to my intuition and a guide for trusting myself and decision making in my life.

During that training, I also learned that for each of our senses, we have a clear ability that goes with that sense. For instance, people that are clairvoyant are able to see ghost spirits and other energies. I learned that I am claircognizant and I just naturally know answers and know things. This helped me understand why I would ask a question or know to ask for specific information to someone that didn't make sense to me but made sense to the other person.

At one point in my training, I signed up with a coach to teach me how to connect to my intuitive abilities even more. He taught us various methods for connecting to our intuition. One of them was to ask a stranger a series of questions, then journal on those questions, share the answers with the stranger, and see what came of that conversation. I did this with a woman I did not know at all, and the message I got was for her to forgive her mother. I didn't understand why that was relevant, but it turned out that we were doing the reading on Mother's Day. What the woman explained to me after we exchanged the information that I had gotten from my automatic writing session was that she had given up a son for adoption, believing that her former husband was going to terminate the pregnancy or kill the child if it was born because he didn't want it. The best thing for her to do was put the child up for adoption, and she had never forgiven herself for putting the child up for adoption.

There's no way I could have known that she had a child that she had adopted, or that that's the message that she needed to hear on that Mother's Day in order to heal that piece of herself.

I had a friend who worked with a famous metaphysician that he said was a total fraud. He did massive conventions and pulled people together from all walks of life to do all sorts of healing retreats and such. He was na huge skeptic and felt most people in the metaphysical world were frauds despite having run finances for the organization for years.

At one point, I did a reading for him, and the image I got was Rudolph the Red-Nosed Reindeer. I asked him what relevance that had to him, and it turns out he had sold a piece of memorabilia that was very valuable and belonged to a guy named Rudolph. Again, nothing I possibly could have known.

After having the entity removed from my energetics in Las Vegas, a few months passed and I ended up going to Colorado for the speaker training. A local coach of mine had a friend who was going to the same training, and she connected us to be roommates. It turns out that my roommate is an Akashic record master. The Akashic Records are considered the energetic book of life and are kept by energetic beings who record all of our past lifetimes and connections of our souls throughout eternity, space, and time.

I got to the airport and was early, so as I was waiting for my plane. I had headphones in in order to manage the energy of the airport. I wasn't paying attention to the time, and I looked up to see the doors at my gate being closed and I missed my plane. Instead of panicking, I called my psychic friend Trish and asked her what she thought it meant. She told me that it had something to do with George Clooney. I immediately thought that was absolutely absurd, and I went to the gate and the attendant moved me to a flight an hour later at a different gate. I headed down to the different gate and got on to my new plane. I looked at the gentleman sitting next to me on the plane and I said to him, "By any chance, is your name George Clooney?" He said to me, "No, it's Bruce Wayne." He proceeded to show me his ID to prove that his name was in fact Bruce Wayne, and he was a farmer from some small town in Texas.

It wasn't until I got off the plane that I made the connection that George Clooney played Bruce Wayne in Batman. Now, normally that wouldn't be all that relevant, but our family friend John T. Larimer was killed in the Batman movie premiere in Aurora, Colorado, during the mass shooting in 2012. The training I was headed to was in Golden, Colorado, which is close to Aurora, Colorado, and I was wondering if there was any way for me to honor my friend's legacy by visiting the memorial that was yet to be built. I asked my roommate if she had any insights into what I should do, and she asked me if she could open my Akashic Records. At breakfast the next morning, she opened my Akashic Records and saw that John and I, along with my former husband, had many past lives together in which we were siblings and family members. There was one life in particular where John and I were married and lived in Colorado on a ranch. We were traversing a river with horses and carriages and buggies. John was trying to get the horse unstuck and died in the process, making me the widow of the ranch and having me grieving from that past lifetime. John and I weren't very close in this lifetime, but I had met him a dozen times through family events, camping trips, and weddings. I didn't understand why I was grieving his loss so heavily. I later learned that, because of this past life and all these past lives we had together, he is a very strong connection in my soul family. That was part of the reason that my grief was so heavy. I was also grieving for the nation as a whole since this was a nationwide tragedy. I was processing grief as a conduit on a much larger scale.

Shortly after my trip to Colorado, I went on a trip to California for the energy healing trainings and was recounting this story to friends when a little girl walked by our table, head to toe dressed in Batman pajamas. The day before that, my roommate went to put out her dry cleaning for the hotel staff to take. A little kid ran by our door just as it opened and turned toward our room with a large Batman logo on the front of his t-shirt. It was then that I learned that spirit plays with us in order to bring light into heavy topics like grief and loss. I later had a conversation with John during another Akashic Record reading in which he made it clear that it was his destiny to perish in that shooting. He is doing energetic work on the other side and would be supporting me on my earthly mission. His soul was perfectly healthy, fine, and intact. The mass shootings that are happening on this planet are designed to raise the consciousness of the collective and to understand that we are all one and we are all connected.

In California, I learned energy mastery and studied to become one of its practitioners so that I could teach students how to do energy healing based on pranic healing. I ended up getting certified and teaching 31 students how to do energy healing work on themselves and others. I used that technique to work with my own clients across the globe doing energetic healings and mindset work to clear traumas and physical ailments and limiting beliefs to liberate them from whatever blockages they were experiencing in their careers, relationships, finances, and health.

I had a woman who had slipped on the floor and gotten a concussion years earlier and was having episodes of debilitating vertigo as a lingering result. She came to me and we did three healing sessions and completely eliminated the vertigo and all symptoms that were remnants of her concussion. I had a client whose mother had health issues affecting her lungs and heart. She had me cleansing her mother energetically remotely from several states away a couple times each week. Her mother's health dramatically improved and extended her life and her quality of life by a year. I had another client who called me from the side of a road on the East Coast, having a panic attack and struggling to breathe because she had gone to a reunion with old friends where she just didn't fit in anymore. I was able to cleanse her energy and get her panic attack stopped within minutes. I had a family friend who was experiencing a migraine for over a week, and I did an energy healing on her. Within 30 minutes, her headache was completely gone, and there was no sign of the migraine afterwards. On a trip to Minneapolis to see a friend, I ate a salad that gave me food poisoning, and I was sick when I arrived at my friend's home. I needed to be well for the baby shower she was having the next day, and I called my husband at the time and asked him to perform an energy healing on me. I went to bed, and I woke up the next day perfectly healthy, like nothing had ever happened.

I have helped three women have four miracle babies. They were told that there was no medical reason why they couldn't have children, but they were doing fertility treatments and struggling to conceive. After doing about three healing sessions with each woman, working through their fears, mindset issues, and limiting beliefs, we were able to clear the path for them to conceive. Two of them got pregnant via in vitro within three months, and a third got pregnant twice naturally after having unsuccessfully having her first round of fertility treatments.

I have helped mothers process the grief of losing a child during delivery, miscarriages, and abortions. I have helped family members with the loss of parents and siblings due to tragic death situations and natural old age. I have supported survivors of sexual assault, robberies, and other traumas. I have worked with wrongful death attorneys to process all the grief from repeatedly witnessing videos of people dying.

I have supported clients dealing with suicidal ideations, struggling in their marriages and relationships, trying to find life partners, and their relationship to their weight and food.

Within the first session of working with me, clients share some of their deepest secrets and release the shame preventing them from moving forward in life. I had one session with a client who introduced her to her child’s father for the first time, lost her job, and worked through past failed relationships only to end up with a new job she loved and engaged to her partner after three months of dating.

My gifts don’t make sense logically, and yet, I’ve worked with hundreds of clients across the globe who can attest to the healing powers of energy and mindset work to provide relief, clarity, and direction.